| Fic: Gunpowder Treason and Plot |
[Nov. 6th, 2009|08:44 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  creative | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | The Art of Suicide - Emilie Autumn | ] |
Title: Gunpowder Treason and Plot
Author: omgitsedolol
Rating: PG for Neku's need to swear
Pairing: No intentional pairings but if you squint hard enough, you can probably find some...
Summary: Remember, remember the fifth of November, gunpowder treason and plot. I know of no reason why the gunpowder treason should ever be forgot.
Notes/Warnings: This was a challenge from a friend of mine since I was dorking over V for Vendetta yesterday. It would have been posted on the fifth but I needed my Minamimoto translator to fix my fail at writing him. Also, I guess this is more post-game since Neku's not as much of an ass as usual.
( Was that… a Guy Fawks mask? )
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| bored palmtree is bored |
[Oct. 4th, 2009|10:44 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Martyr of the Free Word - Epica | ] |
And thus, will write multiple paragraphs of nothingness as means of entertainment. :D
( Read at own risk. ) |
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| fail palmtree is fail. do not pass go. do not collect $200. |
[Sep. 30th, 2009|03:46 am] |
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| |  frustrated | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Dreams of Thee - Rush-Henrietta Chorus | ] |
I'm trying so desperately to write this fic. It shouldn't be this difficult. I have the idea, I know how I want it to happen, but the words just won't come out how I want them to. Yes, it's done from Mr. H's pov, who I epically fail at writing to begin with, but still. D:
Am I really this rusty after not writing for a year or so?
C'mon brain~ Work~ It's only going on 4am! You have no reason to be quitting on me now! |
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| not cool, gaiz! D8 |
[Sep. 16th, 2009|06:34 am] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | The Greatest Show Unearthed - Creature Feature | ] |
So it's like 6:30am and I am not tired at all. I fell asleep around 2am, woke up at 4am with a start, and found myself unable to fall back asleep. I think I had a nightmare but I don't remember any of it so now I'm stuck awake.
Jeez, the last time I was awake at 6am was back when I was in school. Thank god I don't have work today. Otherwise, I think I'd kill myself if concession didn't try to help out as well. =_=;;
So here I am. Awake. With no one online to talk to and nothing to really do. I'd write something but I'm not exactly in the mood and I don't know what I'd write about. I mean, I have a few prompts on kink memes I've been thinking of filling but I've been so deprived of yaoi, I just don't have the creative juices at the moment.
I could clean my disaster zone of a room. But every time I touch something, it gets worse...
I could play some flash games but the novelty wears off quickly and playing Persona 3: FES gives me a headache every time. I just got rid of the last one by falling asleep, I don't want to reawaken it.
So... yeah. I'm stuck like this until someone gets online around... 3pm today. Joy. |
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| *urge to kill things rising* |
[Aug. 29th, 2009|11:39 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Valse de la Lune - Wolf's Rain | ] |
My mom's boyfriend is moving in with us.
...I want to kill small, fluffy things. And knowing where said small, fluffy things are located, I'm finding this difficult to resist.
I can't stand the guy for barely five minutes. I can't deal with him being around all the goddamn time!! D<
And she's still talking about moving out with him to get an apartment so that means we're still stuck having to move out since my grandma, uncle, and myself can't afford the $2,000 monthly rent on our own. And when that happens, I don't know where I'll go. My grandma doesn't want me moving away from her but I want to start out on my own while I'm still young. So... issues.
And then if I'm stuck going with my grandma, I have no idea where we'll end up so I'll most likely not be within walking distance of anyone anymore.
As per usual, thanks mom, for fucking us all over. You're a bitch. :/ |
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| a not emo entry |
[Aug. 24th, 2009|02:23 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Take a Bow - Rihanna | ] |
I am 99% cured of my cold that started last Thursday. :D All that's left is the cough but those generally stick around for months after I get rid of colds.
Aaaaaand~ I beat my old high score on Winterbells! It's now 1,901,340 2,066,520 140,151,660. <3
http://www.ferryhalim.com/orisinal/g3/bells.htm Try to best me~ |
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| another semi-emo entry |
[Aug. 17th, 2009|11:25 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  melancholy | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Son of a Bitch - Miyavi | ] |
I really need to find something happy to write about in this once in a while.
But lately, I've been feeling like no one really wants me around. I know I'm gonna get replies saying "what do you mean? of course we want you around!" but that's what I've been feeling. Whenever I around others, it's like I'm just there for them to make fun of. Yeah, I know I don't get things as quickly as others and most of the time, I'm usually not paying attention long enough to get them. And then everyone goes off talking about how stupid I am.
How is that supposed to make me feel welcome?
Maybe they're joking around, maybe they're not. But it's definitely not making me feel all that great about myself. I already went through this once with a certain someone, I'm not looking for a repeat performance.
Sorry if I'm sounding whiny and that my IQ isn't as amazing as all of yours, but I don't think anyone would take well to the constant reminder that they're not the most brilliant of them all. |
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| sometimes, I really hate myself |
[Jul. 20th, 2009|11:44 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  apathetic | ] |
It's true. I get into these slumps for pretty much no reason and they force me to just sit around, being bitchy to anyone who attempts to talk to me. Ugh... I don't even know what spurred this one on. I was fine one minute and then moody as all hell the next. It's doing nothing for my friendships, I know that much.
Isolating myself isn't going to help either because that's just gonna let it build until I vent to the wrong person and things that shouldn't be said will be. But I don't want to throw this onto someone either.
And to make matters worse, my reoccurring jealousy has decided to come back in full force while I'm in this low. So I really have to watch what I say. Though, as I've seen, distancing myself isn't helping either. And when I try to act like nothing is wrong, I just end up feeling worse.
There really is no way I can win.
Why do I still cling to desperate reasons to stay alive? Maybe I really would be better off gone.
I know I'm supposed to be the happy and optimistic one but... I really have lost my way this time. Might take me a while to get back to myself. |
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| work and carnies |
[Jul. 17th, 2009|10:46 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Weeeek - NewS | ] |
Power outage at Regal was epic today. We played hide-and-seek in the theaters for an hour. :D And then we had to go clean the parking lot to earn cheeseburgers from Wendy's. Which made me sick...
But sufa walked up and we talked for a half hour until the emofish came to get her. I just noticed I'm suddenly hooking up with all my old friends again. XD
Went to the Rush Carnival with my loving seme-tan tonight. It was fun until we got a free ride on the Octopus and I ended up with another upset stomach. But face-tabling for a half hour and taking tums cleared that up right away. :3 We kinda failed at the games and I couldn't really eat much since I was feeling queasy. But it was still fun because I had my seme-tan with me~ <3
I gotta work tomorrow. I really do not want since it's an 8:30am-5pm shift but I need the money. I can die on Sunday until at least 11. And then beg my work not to call me in for that damn 12-8:30 shift. But Anthony offered to take 12-3 so that means I'd only have to work 5 1/2 hours. Can't wait until I have to explain that one to my grandma...
Overall? An okay day. Even though I really want to call in tomorrow. >_>;;; |
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| *RAGE* |
[Jul. 5th, 2009|09:34 am] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  cranky | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | My Wings - Lacuna Coil | ] |
So I'm stuck down here in Pennsylvania, waiting for my great-grandma to die. Which is stupid, boring, and very disrespectful but I wasn't allowed to have a say in the matter. And so, I am now forced to sit around in the hotel room all day by myself because I wasn't allowed to go with my grandma to see my dying great-grandmother and because no one else is awake. Not like I'd want to go see any of them anyways...
Ugh, Wednesday can't come soon enough. I just want to go home. I don't care about the funeral. I'm probably gonna sit out in the lobby or something and write porn because I'm gonna be bored out of my mind. Not to mention, there's been nothing but fights since coming here. And I absolutely hate my mom's boyfriend. He's such an ass and probably doesn't like me because I have no problem telling my mom she's a bitch and needs to shut the fuck up. :/
So yeah, at the moment, I'm really hating my life. |
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| oh, the irony |
[Jul. 2nd, 2009|09:36 am] |
| [ | emotions |
| | sleepy | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Grandfather - Stephen Lynch | ] |
Pull an all-noghter so my face is about to meet my laptop in the near future. =_=
So my family's in a tug of war for pros and cons of going down to PA while my great-grandma is still alive. We don't know how long she's gonna last and my grandma doesn't want to go down to just sit around for days waiting for her to die. But my mom's getting all spazzy about going down today because she wants to flaunt her boyfriend to the family. :/
Personally, I'd love to not have to go down. But we're probably gonna leave tomorrow if not the 4th. I really doubt she's gonna last long enough to survive the weekend. Which really sucks because I want to go to Chelsea's family thing tomorrow and see the fireworks at the town park with everyone. :< Not to mention the cut in my paycheck...
Honestly, I'm too tired to care at the moment as mean as that sounds. |
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| *dies on bed* |
[Jun. 27th, 2009|04:36 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  sore | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Oh No You Didn't - Wojahn Brothers | ] |
So Strong Museum and walking around downtown yesterday? Totally fun and epic and needs to be done again.
Working today with the after-effects of yesterday? Not so epic. I could not bend my knees or sit at all without getting help standing back up. The good news is I got out at 2 instead of having to stay until 6. So now I get to sit on my bed for the rest of the night and not strain my thighs which feel like they were beat with a meat tenderizer.
So yeah. Still need to see Up before it's boot'd out of the theater in room for Ice Age. And I can't get tickets to Transformers until Monday but I wasn't planning on seeing it for a while.
And I might be getting dragged down to PA any day now. Joy. |
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| announcement and meme |
[Jun. 23rd, 2009|09:19 pm] |
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| | bored | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Zessei Bijin - Ai Nonaka | ] |
Quick announcement: OH GOD! I HAVE SWINE FLU IN MY HOUSE!!! D8
Now, on to the meme.
Reply to this meme by yelling "Words!" and I will give you five words that remind me of you. Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.
Provided by Franch:
Palm tree: Envy was my first cosplay and I actually sprayed my hair green. So along with the nickname of "Envy" I also inherited being a palm tree.
Yaoi: Ah... this is the one thing that makes life worth while and that I always have on my mind. Seriously. Any time of the day, ask me what's on my mind, I will guarantee you it's yaoi. XD;;
Uke: While I tried to fight this, I have found that it's impossible. Mentally, I'm a seme, but physically... I'm an abusive uke. Yeah, that's right. I actually put up a fight to the rape. >P
Glasses: I can't see without them. :/ But they add to my cute charm so it all works out! <3
Loli: That is what I am. Nevermind that I'm going on 20, I will forever look cute, fluffy, and rape-able. This also means that everyone who comes after me is a rapist. :D |
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| I can has new house? |
[Jun. 22nd, 2009|07:18 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Diamonds Are A Girl's Best Friend - Nicole Kidmann | ] |
Well, more like "I can has less family members?" At least boot out my mom and siblings, seriously. I get screamed at every five seconds by her for something I do. And if it's not her screaming at me, it's my siblings screaming at each other. New location is need plz. :/
Cosplay shoot on Friday if I can throw the shift to someone. I'm still debating Maya or goth-loli. I kinda want to do Maya since we'll be at the Hall of Justice but the skirt is way too short for me to want to walk around downtown. And her hair is such a pain in the ass.
However, my goth-loli one would be painful to walk around in since I'd have my boots. And I probably have to work the next day so my ankles would be in extreme pain. And wearing any of my comfy shoes would look weird.
So... yeah.
Gotta see if I'm working on Wednesday. Gotta shove that shift to someone else since it's Bean's birthday. And then I'm hoping to have the 3rd off so I can hang with my dear Seme-tan. And then I pray I have an opening shift or don't have to work at all the fourth since I was planning on seeing the fireworks with everyone.
*dies on laptop* |
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| *sigh* |
[Jun. 14th, 2009|08:53 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  discontent | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Trick and Treat - Vocaloids | ] |
Is to the current situation as Roy Mustang is to a rainy situation.
Useless. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 12th, 2009|08:35 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  crappy | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Lost My Music - Hirano Aya | ] |
So amazing goth-loli day turned into one of the worst days of the month. I was really happy and excited. I had my dress, choker, arm warmers, fishnets, boots, hair pulled up in a side ponytail, Lupus Guy's little top hat, and red ribbons. I really liked how it turned out.
Beth and I walked up to the high school, I got a ton of compliments on my outfit. And on the walk to Regal, we got a bunch of beeps and shout-outs. I surprised my manager when I got my check and my coworkers all loved my outfit.
And while we were in the mall, I was getting compliments in the department stores.
But after we got Hanekoma, it just seemed everything went downhill from there. As time passed, I was getting really irritated. I figured I was just getting really exhausted and it was showing through but I'm not usually bitchy when I'm tired, I actually tend to get apathetic. But so we went home, which I kinda didn't want to do at the time since I knew my mom was gonna have a hissy fit when/if she saw me. I was hoping and praying that she'd be in the basement when I got home.
But, of course, she wasn't. She was waiting right in front of the door. And she didn't just throw a fit. She screamed like no tomorrow about how I looked like a total slut, that I should be ashamed of myself, how I could be jumped by a pervert, and that I'm hanging around the wrong crowd of people. It's everything I've heard before but keep in mind, I was quite exhausted at this point. So I ended up breaking down into tears and ran off to my room, where my mom followed after me to continue bitching me out. After a while, my grandma came along to tell her to leave me alone, where I found out my mom was going to go spend the night at her boyfriend's place anyways so it wasn't as if she was dressed decently or anything.
So yeah. Just a really terrible night and I should probably go to bed soon but I gotta shower first. |
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| Didn't I tell you I eat puppies? Didn't I? |
[Jun. 11th, 2009|02:11 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  hungry | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Let the Monster Rise - Repo! The Genetic Opera | ] |
So I should be cleaning my room. But effort ran out so I figured I'd update this.
So my work schedule for next week, kinda makes me want to kill things. I only got three days of work like everyone else and they're such weird shifts. Saturday I got 10:30-6, Wednesday I work 1-9:30, and then Thursday's 12-6. WTF?! I'm gonna attempt to pick up a shift on Sunday. I just really need the hours and I don't want my paycheck to suffer too much...
Speaking of my paycheck, I'm starting to save up for a car, cosplay items, and any possible trips anywhere. I know I'm gonna go down to PA again sometime this summer. Probably a few times. And I kinda want to go to Florida but that'd be a lot so I don't know if I'll make it.
Ugh. Cleaning. I have too many clothes and not enough room to put them away. D:
Tomorrow is a Goth-loli day. Anyone at the high school definitely needs to bring a camera! *stares at Franch* We are also getting Mr. H tomorrow. Don't know how we're going to bring him home but that'll be the challenge for the day.
In other news, I can has cheeseburger? :< *is starving* |
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| I has a question |
[Jun. 7th, 2009|09:46 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | California Dreaming - The Mamas and The Papas | ] |
While I know everyone has their reasons, I just wanted to know: am I the only person not depressed, contrary to what my grandmother believes?
Yeah, I know life can be pretty shitty but that's when you look on the brighter side of things! *done being a natural optimist and will now go back to world of sunshine and daisies* |
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| ARGH |
[May. 31st, 2009|09:54 pm] |
| [ | emotions |
| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | tunes |
| | Haben Sie gehört das Deutsche band? - The Producers | ] |
Dear family,
Just because I don't have a smile on my face 24/7 does not mean I'm depressed. Stop trying to say I am. I'm perfectly fine. Now shut the fuck up.
Love,
Envy
PS: Please stop bumping into the bite mark on my arm. I know you don't know about it but it still hurts a lot. DX |
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